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[16 Jan 2002|10:06am]
The end, therefore, will not come upon mankind as a large catastrophe or by means of a prophesized, apocalyptic event. No, as I see it, the fall of the human race will arrive slowly, in a series of small, gentle defeats barely noticed by the majority. Through seemingly unrelated episodes of failed intelligence and misjudged decisions, a process has already begun in which the thirst for furthering our strength and power and wealth and exploration and understanding that will ultimately cause our collapse. The same attitude that brought us so much accomplishment is the same attitude that, in the end, will only be described as self-destructive.
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full of [07 Dec 2001|12:13pm]
[ mood | so confused! ]

DISILLUSION!
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[30 Nov 2001|08:37am]
[ mood | yes ]

three pleasant events from yesterday:
(1) watching a girl balance and walk atop the curb for at least a hundred feet (her look of concentration was darling),
(2) the wind blowing my fuzzy tiger-jacket w i d e open as I walked back to my car in the chilly night air
(3) telling Meena over chai that "life is really good right now" and meaning it for the first time in who knows how long.


[snip]
(laughs) "It's not even springtime."
"Dude, for people in Seattle, it has nothing to do with spring."
"Yeah, it's all about 'Hey baby, it's freezing outside; come get under the covers with me!'"
(laughs again) "Exactly."
[snip]
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[22 Nov 2001|06:39pm]
[ mood | *hee!* ]

Right.
So, apparently there's something about driving a stick-shift...

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are you a vampire? [18 Nov 2001|04:43pm]
[ mood | happy ]

memorable weekend event: 3-year old Ruthie whispered, "Are you a vampire?"



A lazy afternoon.
Is this what it's like to relax?

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[16 Nov 2001|08:11pm]
[ mood | ha! ]

Roo says: "What do you call a lazy buffalo? ... A buffalo-fer."

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[15 Nov 2001|06:11pm]
The 'c' key stiks.
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winter schedule [15 Nov 2001|02:05pm]
[ mood | worried, tired ]

Do I like this?
I haven't quite decided.

Winter quarter 2002

  • PSYCH 315: Understanding Statistics In Psychology (5 cr.)
  • PSYCH 355: Cognitive Psychology (5 cr.)
  • ITAL/HSTEU 250: Rome (5 cr.) [and for the curious, a link!]

    Other possibilities:
  • LSJ 355: Introduction To The American Courts (3 cr.)
  • LSJ 440: Criminal Law and Procedure (4 cr.)
    well, technically, I'd have to drop one of the previous classes (Rome, maybe) in order to take four more credits. But as long as I have 18 I think I'll be fine.</blockquote>
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    the littal-est Kite is ailing! [14 Nov 2001|11:21am]
    [ mood | dis-______________ ]

    Roo-ness has mono.
    Icka. I sympathize; been there, done that.
    My father, this morning, asked me if I had peculiar cravings while I was ill. I said, "I craved... um, death."

    And maybe I have to be "mom" for a while because

    In other news,
    my mother departs for a psychological conference in London this evening. She's terrified of flying, and being out of the country alone. I think this is symptomatic of her childhood; being the only family of Eastern descent for a forty-mile radius in the 1960s is ostracizing.
    She didn't have (m)any friends for a while, and stuck close to home and her siblings. Seeing her adaption, her successes in her career and ability to relate on an interpersonal level with so many individuals with various social and mental-health disorders is pretty impressive, at least to me.


    I just wanted to say that he reminds me of of myself at his age.
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    disjointed: note(s) to self [13 Nov 2001|02:47pm]
    [ mood | waiting ]

    I am just exhausted.
    but the emphasis isn't on 'exhausted', it's on 'just'



    I don't want to move

    from this chair.
    Looking outside at the wet-ness, this is no longer a pleasantry of the season.
    It is gloomy (coordinating coordinates) - like my mood
    but maybe it's just because I let anxiety overrule happiness.

    I'm really not as distressed or as confused as I sound. Really.
    I just need to remind myself of that, when things like u-hauling five miles north or hearing rumors about phantasmic letters or weirdly unexpected fashion photo-shoots fall into my lap (or lack thereof).

    you're not a model

    you aren't a model for anything
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    repulsion [09 Nov 2001|01:23pm]
    [ mood | excited ]

    New movie!
    Film class is generally a good way to spend some academic time doing non-academic things (like sitting the dark for two and a half days a week, watching movies "taught" by an outrageous professor).

    BUT! Roman Polanski's REPULSION is on my list of creepy things to get scared by, that don't involved vasoline jars, broken mirrors or mauled sleeping bags hanging from trees.

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    [07 Nov 2001|11:09am]
    [ mood | restless ]

    Have you received your Confidence Bump! today?

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    road-kill [05 Nov 2001|09:27am]
    [ mood | nauseated ]

    Yesterday I saw three separate road-way incidents in which animals were hu'ted.
    Ick.

  • 1 dead cat
  • 1 hamburger-ified raccoon
  • 1 half-maimed German Shepherd, still alive at the time we passed it, it's back end crushed
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    "Actually, you didn't." [05 Nov 2001|09:22am]
    [ mood | curious ]

    My computer neighbor has a huge swollen bruise beneath his right eye.
    I wonder what happened; my initial thought was that during the course of some drunken frat brawl blows were exchanged, but I'm probably wrong about that.

    I think he's reading a LiveJournal, too.
    Maybe he'll read this and comment!


    Whenever I skip class I never seem to be doing anything I enjoy.
    Abandoning lectures twice in two weeks to write papers for the said classes skipped seems a bit ridiculous. At least I can justify things to my parents. That has always been important to me.

    Maybe a chocolate muffin will give me some energy,
    or a line of crack.
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    [03 Nov 2001|02:44pm]
    [ mood | relieved ]

    I received my acceptance email to the Society & Justice department a day late.

    so?

    Tardiness causes anxiety.

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    [01 Nov 2001|12:32pm]
    [ mood | season premiere-ish ]

    *snort*

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    [31 Oct 2001|09:42am]
    [ mood | essay-ed out ]

    and nothing but living in a perfectly moral manner is accepted.



    What is "perfectly moral"? and is that the same as "morally perfect"?
    The quote is referring to the Puritans.
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    [17 Oct 2001|11:51am]
    [ mood | satisfied ]

    Word of the week: success.
    on so many different levels

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    [16 Oct 2001|01:57pm]
    [ mood | happy ]

    Since I can't think of [new] anything to say,
    here's something of old:

    Today is clear.
    Bright.
    The wind is wonderfully fierce.

    I will not cry tonight.
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    gunshy [15 Oct 2001|11:56am]
    I think I can believe in person like this; I never used to.
    maybe I should write in here more often. paper journals and I have bad chemistry. my words always fall into spirals. text is more reliable --straight lines that won't unravel and like spools of thread spin into black distance, jumping back as snarling faces.
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